ah, anyway. i don’t usually do gossip (i hope i think i know), but this time it’s really something i can’t talk to anyone about, so in order to ensure that i can keep my mouth shut i thought maybe i’d just talk about it on here..
i keep returning to tumblr cause i just love it soo much but unfortunately i just don’t always have the time to write and reblog stuff… i’m so sorry. for everyone who’s still here: i currently feel okay. things are going well. i found a job and i’ve started paying back the debt i’m in. still owe a shitload of money to B. though he says he doesn’t want most of it back.
me and B. are still a couple but i’m getting more and more annoyed by his friends. there’s this one girl he used to have a crush on that still twists him around her little finger. and there’s this other female friend of his that keeps telling him about her (naked) photo shoots. and then there’s his younger brother who keeps trying to get everyone’s attention by just being absolutely obnoxious. He’s a horrible poser, trying to seem as edgy as possible by telling everyone that he’s had such a terrible drug problem and that his girlfriend (allegedly) is a manic depressive which is why they fight so much but he LOVES HER SO MUCH (although he’s cheated on her twice or even more often), they fight each other on a night out until they’ve gotten EVERYONE’s attention just to make up a few moments later. they’re both just horribly crude and immature and i can’t stand being around them. hearing someone talk about depression and serious problems like that makes you really angry when you’ve had these problems yourself.
but i can’t say these things out loud because they’re friends of B.’s and its driving me mad.
Today is weird. B. left for work at 4 in the morning (he has to work somewhere near Frankfurt today) and woke me up asking where his clothes were because I washed them for him. Now I can’t go back to sleep. I have an appointment at the doctor’s at 4 pm today and I might be quite scared of going there, so maybe it’s that. I suppose I’ll get dressed and make tea.
Well, not much really but i’m doing fine so far. I work in a club in cologne now, cloakroom. And I had my phone stolen at Heathrow back in July, so maybe we should rather have a chat via Facebook sometime? :-)
Ishani I’m on Bruno’s iPad so I can’t reply properly but I will have Internet in a few weeks I think! :-) Finally after about 10 months of living here hah. One day I will grow into an adult and take care of all the things so I can spend at least an hour on the interwebz every day and still make enough money to have something to eat while doing so! Promise! How are you anyway?
compartmentalising said: Can you give us some context on the silly robes/coats? We are dying of curiousity!
there’s not much to say about them… they left the stage 2 times, and after they returned for the second time thom and flea were wearing those coats… b. said they looked like bath robes… i think it was just for shits and giggles, thom yorke introduced the band as atoms for peace and that’s about it. it kind of had a more epic / cabalistic vibe to it, the way thom spoke and moved around, he sort of looked like a little monk. but as i said, i suppose it was mostly just for fun. a lot of people dress up at festivals, maybe they just wanted to take part in it :-)
also i got my phone stolen at heathrow the other day… i wouldn’t mind as much if it hadn’t been so expensive. also it had some quite important data on it. stuff that hardly anyone can read, but well… i suppose i’m better off without it, in a way.
it was super hot, most of the people were super annoying (whatever happened to the trendy melt crowd of ‘09,’10-ish?) and i got super tanned! even B. got tanned in his 3 weeks of festival madness, not quite as tanned as me though cause he’s super pale.
i saw joy orbison, james blake, alt-j, king krule, marcel dettmann, ben klock, disclosure, tricky, babyshambles, django django, flying lotus and atoms for peace (of course)
i missed ben ufo and rhye, ellen allien and monika kruse and some others cause i was asleep / having sex.
atoms for peace was great, i was in the 3rd row or something directly in front of thom yorke, completely sober and dancing my ass off. sorry if i was annoying any of you, i must have been uncomfortably bouncy for the very typical “stand and listen”-radiohead-crowd. i think i actually recognized a few faces?
I’m in oxford and all i do all day is talk to B… He just told me to go to london to watch people climb the highest skyscraper in europe… But i don’t really feel like doing anything without him. I’ll see him again next thursday and the days have literally never seemed longer
Yesterday i went shopping with B. and we bought a lot of wonderful food and I got a new cookbook! I can’t wait to cook properly again, haven’t had enough money for that in weeks.
Today we’re gonna clean his flat and tomorrow morning he’ll be off to austria for a construction job. Tomorrow night the wonderful Spring Offensive will be playing here in Cologne so I’ll go and see them with a few friends. I’ve been looking forward to this for so long!
he’s still not here :-( i’m biding my time making playlists since i have roughly 170 GB of music at the moment and I find it hard to decide what I want to listen to sometimes (without listening to the same stuff again and again) so I’m trying to make themed playlists… I’m really, REALLY pedantic when it comes to my music library
Okay so B. and I have been a couple for almost 2 months now, which is not much but tonight was the first night we didn’t spend together since then because he is away on a construction job and now I feel really lonely and ugh I feel like this is sort of getting out of hand? He’ll be back on friday and I feel like I should really try and enjoy my alone time because I used to LOVE being alone and now I just hate it. Also I actually got stuff to do. Ugh.
tumblr won’t let me reply to asks at the moment so I’ll reply to messages later, yeah? :-) B.’s just left to watch a football match in Bonn and I’m gonna help N. set up a tumblr for his photography later, basically i suppose i’ll code him a theme and then we’ll sit around and drink coffee and listen to the allan parsons project while smoking too much
so it’s J. birthday today and I have to go home at some point to get her present (I’m giving her a perfume she really loves) and to get myself ready for the party tonight but I’m sooo lazy and I’m still at B.’s and I’m wearing one of his shirts while eating crisps and browsing tumblr and he just said that I look beautiful lmao