B. will be back in about an hour :3
B. just called me to say that he just bought pablo honey on vinyl
Okay so B. and I have been a couple for almost 2 months now, which is not much but tonight was the first night we didn’t spend together since then because he is away on a construction job and now I feel really lonely and ugh I feel like this is sort of getting out of hand? He’ll be back on friday and I feel like I should really try and enjoy my alone time because I used to LOVE being...
N. is not at home so I’ll just code a prototype theme for him and then blog some more and watch videos and listen to music heheheh
tumblr won’t let me reply to asks at the moment so I’ll reply to messages later, yeah? :-) B.’s just left to watch a football match in Bonn and I’m gonna help N. set up a tumblr for his photography later, basically i suppose i’ll code him a theme and then we’ll sit around and drink coffee and listen to the allan parsons project while smoking too much
so it’s J. birthday today and I have to go home at some point to get her present (I’m giving her a perfume she really loves) and to get myself ready for the party tonight but I’m sooo lazy and I’m still at B.’s and I’m wearing one of his shirts while eating crisps and browsing tumblr and he just said that I look beautiful lmao
anyway, lately i’m missing the reblog button on my dash, anyone seen it? is it because missing e is interfering with the latest tumblr update again?
whatever gets u thru the night
i rediscovered john lennon’s music this week. i used to listen to the beatles a lot when i was younger, basically non-stop during 2006 and 2007, don’t really know why i sort of stopped doing it, probably got distracted considering the fact that there is so much good music out there but yeah, they’re brilliant. so i’m listening to Walls and Bridges while cleaning the flat...
@Vanessa: OH JE ALLES GUT BEI DIR? Ich habe immernoch kein internet deswegen bin ich momentan voll schlecht darin kontakt zu halten mit meinen freunden aber ich hoffe es ist alles gut in stuttgart? :-)
pretty sure plaid shirt guy checked out my profile on okcupid
hey let’s play a little game it’s called “is there money on my bank account or not”
k.i.z. raping windowlicker is not fun please B. turn it off plssss
i’m playing rollercoaster tycoon 2 while eating ice cream and listening to expert knob twiddlers
B. is letting me use his wifi a+++ boyfriend in exchange i’m gonna make him food later when he comes home from work :-) it’s going to be a surprise though so shhhh
hello? is anybody listening in? the past week was great. ishani visited and we had lots of fun, i cooked for her and we went to watch a football match and made mojitos and wrote and antifolk song! i got together with B. on saturday (i think) and Ishani left on sunday so we accompanied her to the airport and since then i spent most of my time with him. i guess having a boyfriend is not much...
mauwnugget: The Trapeze Swinger - Iron &...
pssssst hey guys it’s ishani (jonnymorningwood) hahahahhahahaha wow tumbling as someone else while someone else is showering isnt really that fun i dunno why people get a kick out of it anyway ive been here like four days and eileen has been really wonderful and lovely to me and you should all send her messages about what a great person she is we’re making pizza soon n______n
@Eileen: it’s fine, i feel like i’m still in charge. today i told him that i wanted him to come over and again he was all like “don’t pressure me idk if it’s the right thing to do blah blah we should stop doing this ” so i said “fine then let’s go back to being just friends” and he replied with “no let’s just take it slow ok :*” idk he’s just super immature, he can’t hurt me anyway. i hope i won’t...
so B. and I got really drunk on friday and ended up having sex and yesterday he came around again and we did it again and i really don’t know how to feel about it but when i asked him earlier whether everything was okay he said that it was fine but that i shouldn’t get used to it and i fucking snapped. who the fuck does he think i am? as if he hadn’t noticed me tearing apart everything i’ve gotten...
i cut myself on the edges of what we want but cannot have the spirit unfolds but the body grows old you’re growing well tired listen to the lazy drum… and i always thought the country must be so very beautiful in the snow the eerie patience of the ancient wrapped tenderly into a white coat you’re growing well tired listen to the lazy drum…
now i’ll be in Düsseldorf for the weekend and we’re not gonna see each other again until monday, which means i won’t be seeing him for another 4 days and i already miss him SO MUCH. i know it’s ridiculous. anyway, on monday he’ll come around after work and i’ll make him his favourite food (i know that cause we agree on the fact that aubergine is the best...
ugh so i visited B. on sunday (again, yes i know) and he made us coffee and we listened to his new records while i was lying on his tummy. it was so wonderful that i missed my last train home. so when we lay in bed i said: “my mind is like a pin-ball machine” and he said: “what’s your score?” and i said: “zero. the ball just keeps falling through. actually you...
i helped B. to clean his flat on monday and then we got drunk and watched the ingenue video and i ended up staying over night. when he had to go to work in the morning he told me to sleep in, and when i woke up i cleaned the rest of the flat and walked home because the weather was wonderful (it still is, in fact!). now he’s away on a construction job for 1 1/2 weeks and he told me he’s going to...
we went to a supermarket on saturday morning, completely shitfaced and B. wanted to buy a ready-made cake and i told him not to because he doesn’t have an oven and then everyone laughed at me because apparantly you don’t need an oven to make these sorts of cakes?? i really didn’t know this, i’ve never had ready-made cake before, oh my god this is so embarrassing
also i totally forgot that N. knows my url. if you see this, hey dude! this is where i put all the rubbish that i can’t talk about in real life!
i watched a football match today with B. and i liked it?? maybe it was just because he kept teasing me and put his arm around my shoulders but i also liked starting to drink beer at 11am and walking around bonn. afterwards we visited J. and had a few more beers and then we went back home because B. has to go to work tomorrow morning. i tried to ask him about P. but he says nothing happened...
we try and try and try to become who we’re not, we lose what we’ve got and we try and try to fill in the blanks and wash our hands come home darling, you can come home to me, come home sweetheart. it will break your back (as soon as you realise) it will break your back (one day you’ll realise) it will break your back it’s too much for you to carry...
yesterday my friend J. worked at a club here in cologne and so B. (the guy i fancy) called me up and came over for a few beers and then we went to see J. we were already super shitfaced when we got there and they played indie tunes and classics the entire night and we DANCED OUR FUCKING ASSES OFF it was wonderful! B. is a crazy dancer (not good crazy, just crazy) and we danced together until 6 am...
there’s this band that recorded one of my songs and it ended up being the b-side to their latest single. it was released today and i’ve read some reviews and they all pointed out that they thought that lyrics to that song were brilliant. i feel so achieved, i mean, even if i wrote it 3 years ago… i can finally be proud of it. i never thought it was that good anyway. maybe i...
i watched the ingenue video earlier with the guy i ~like~ (and who turned me down) and he was amazed and afterwards he started discussing thom yorke’s hair with me (i think he’s the one i mean COME ON) and i lost a bet so now i’ll have to clean his appartment. but yeah, i had a really good time since tuesday. i spent two days at my friends’ place and we watched...
i’m leaving düsseldorf as i type, i visited my mother and father and brother and met up with Mathilde which was great, but it felt sorta strange to be back. i’m happy that i’m heading back to cologne now…
also my friend really loves amok, he put it on while we were chilling and suddenly everyone was talking about thom yorke / radiohead which means that they were all sort of talking to me which never happens cause i’m not usually that sociable but i had like half a bottle of whiskey so it was fine